needs or wants or ....

My lappie :( 

Haih. I am stuck, really don't feel like buying a new laptop. This laptop served me so well.. since 2006 till now, that is 6years of service and everything is still working well, except for that! Le sigh.

There's so much things i want, but do i truly need them? I prefer to go travelling. This year, i want to get my diving license. Then Korea and Australia is another holiday destination that i want to go. Then also Europe trip! but not this year.. haha.

Truth to say this year 2012, I want to live a simplistic life, strip bare to the barest minimum. Back to basic? To be relieved of the hype. I don't want to 'follow the trend', if its possible. My car, i need it to go to A to B, and that's it, Jaga my car properly, service properly. Thinking of getting a bike, then i can cycle to work? Less carbon print. Gonna find the clothes that I don't wear anymore and donate it away. Stuff I can live without, I will try and leave without. To compensate for the carbon print from the travelling. hehe.

Going away from Malaysia is something that makes me alive. Looking forward to go back to Brunei for CNY hols. Then I must look for a new holiday destination to go. Addicted to airports much? :)

Sick

Been horribly sick for the past few days (yes I was sick during christmas!) It's not like I've been puking or hurting or anything. I'm just downright sick, cough, flu, eyes red and itchy, lethargic. Anyway... I've been coughing the whole night last night and i couldn't sleep. I'm super tired, but every 5mins or so, just when im dozing off, the throat would just itch and i just start coughing again. And I am super TIRED from coughing, and coughing would lead to wheezing and gahhH!!!

So this morning, i went to see the panel doctor to find a solution for this matter, and it is just so disappointing. Doctor saw me assumed bacterial infection, and passed me some throat lozenges, something for the phlegm, cough med and guess what ANTIBIOTICS. Le sigh. And sorry to say, but i know my body, and i know it's breaking down somehow. She heard my lungs and said there is NO congestion. (Lady, i know there is congestion, I can't fucking breathe! )

So after going to the panel doctor of my company, i decided to go to another clinic where it has really good review and the doctor is insanely nice and super observant. He spends a lot of time just talking and understanding the patient. The moment i entered, and he saw me, he knew i was having an allergic reaction. Though to what he is not sure but he knew i am having allergic reaction. The coughing was due to the lung congestion and the histamine that is in my body. Plus the point where I was a smoker (and prob will be a social smoker later :p), and has just recently quit, my body was undergoing some serious renovation... He deduced that I was actually having eczema and asthma.

And this is actually true, (no i'm not saying it is true because it sounds right) my childhood doctor in Limbang Sarawak actually told me all this before, as I need to be on loratadine on a daily basis when I am back in Temburong, because I am having allergic reaction, and the symptoms are all the same, i just didn't link it together! I assumed that I am only allergic to something back home (like pollens) cos my nose would just swell up and shit got serious. What I didn't realise is that I could be allergic to that damn thing here too!!

So anyway, I will be on a lot of medication the next few days and I'll be on Ventolin, Loratadine and short term antibiotics due to the inflammation and yellow phlegm, cough syrup for d cough. I think I can never live without loratadine or piriton ever.. GAG! Nothing for the throat cos i am not having sore throat.. but something for the lungs cos i can't breathe.

And I will definitely go back to that doctor as he is super attentive and super awesome! :) in case, anyone who ever finds this, you can try going to that klinik! :)

Dr D.S Gendeh
Klinik Sri Permai
Bandar Sunway, Jalan PJS9/1A,
Pusat Perniagaan Lagoon Perdana.

And i will never go back to the panel doctors no more, even if i can't claim it.

The State of the Unknown.

I wish I am here right now.. Doesn't matter where, but just by the ocean, listening to the waves, where all problems seem so small. Sitting down by the sands, my bare feet covered, and a warm blanket over me, while the waves lulled me to a peaceful mind. Seeing the sun rise, from darkness to the tinge of orange covering the cloudy skies, as dawn come, it will be alright again. Going back to people who you love and care with a clear mind and no cloudy whisper of the devil. Listening to the angels sing...

I wish there was a song to describe how I feel, the peacefulness overcoming in waves, each one bigger than the other, as they washes away my doubts, worries and problems. Yet, songs failed me this time. For all i can think about is the sound of the crashing waves hitting the shores. No voice can ever replace the sound of nature. I can only reminisce about the few little times when I was at the beach, warm and protected, the calming that I felt, I can only try and relive it in my mind.

Surrounded by blocks of cements, the concrete jungle that I call home, but yet again, all I want is to be by the beach, surrounded by sands...

updates

HOLIDAY! :)

My left shift key's nt really functioning very well. Lappie please don't die on me. :(

Been saving up for Sept's Korea trip, so it's a green light for me! whee~ Should be able to go there and travel comfortably. :)

Signed up for a credit card recently, I find that cc is just more convenient to book hotels online, instead of using a debit card, which charges you immediately, as opposed to a cc which just holds the booking for you. So yea! cc! This is a good time to learn if i can manage my finances well enough with the temptation of a credit card. I've always thought that even though i am a big spender, i still somehow managed my money well, like i still got savings end of the month, though its not much, but yea. lol.

Anyway, I'm going back Brunei on the 31st! Yay~! Can't wait to go home and get all that loving from d parents and sister. :) hehehehe

I've recently privatised my blog due to serious personal issues. But time heals everything, so it's gonna be deprivatised :)

Not that (ithink) there will be any thing much to say.. ;)